Molar Pregnancy {My Story}

Before I start this I want to say that if you’ve ever went through a miscarriage, still birth, or Molar Pregnancies my heart goes out to you. I never in a million years would have thought I’d be going through this.. I also want to put that this post might be a trigger warning for anyone who has went through any kind of pregnancy loss..

 

So hereΒ is my story that I have felt like I needed to write. We found out we were expecting another baby at the end of September. We were so happy, Lexi was going to be a big sister and I just couldn’t wait for June 2018 to come.. We head into the end of October and I started spotting.. My first trimester OB appointment was 4 days after I started spotting. I thought for sure I was miscarrying! Bleeding stopped and I didn’t think any more about it. Went in for my first trimester ultrasound and I just had this overwhelming feeling that something wasn’t right the day before. I just couldn’t shake the feeling. Go in for the ultrasound and as soon as the tech turned the screen on I knew in my heart that I was indeed right, something wasn’t right.. The tech looked at me and said “I am so sorry but you don’t have a viable pregnancy”. You have a very rare pregnancy, a molar pregnancy.. Now I had never heard of a molar pregnancy before and I didn’t know what it meant! After she took all the pictures that she needed for my OB, I then went to see my OB and talk with her about what all had to take place..Β 

When my OB came into the room she confirmed what her suspicion was (She couldn’t fully diagnosed me with a molar pregnancy until the pathology team confirmed it) and said that I needed a D&C as soon as possible and would call me back that day with my surgery date. Now mind you I have NEVER had any kind of surgery before.. So finding out that I had a molar pregnancy and finding out that I also needed surgery was A LOT for me to process.. Not to mention I would have to relay all this information back to my husband who was suppose to start working nights that exact same night and couldn’t go with me to this appointment.. I held it together until I got home. As soon as I got home and looked at my husband I just couldn’t hold it together.. I cried and cried while he held me! Knowing that I had my husband holding me and letting me cry was so what I needed.. So my Ob appointment was on a wednesday, my surgery was that Friday.. Going in for the surgery I didn’t really know what to expect. I mean I had talked with some friends who have had one done, But honestly it doesn’t prepare you for what it actually is! The surgery was a total of 20 minutes and we had to stay in the recovery area for one hour afterwards. Which was so simple for me since I wasn’t in any pain. That weekend I experienced all the pain from the surgery and the pain of going through the loss.. I have never cried so much in my life, and I just can’t imagine how I would have been able to do this without my husband. He is my rock! Having Lexi to take my mind off the hurt has been so good for me too! Fast forward to my first blood draw since the surgery. We found out my HCG (pregnancy hormone) levels were 247,000 before surgery. It is extremely high but also normal when dealing with a molar pregnancy. So it was back to weekly blood draws until the HCG levels go to zero.. I will say the weekly blood draws have been Hell on me.. Physically and emotionally.. Every week after having it done, I have felt like shit! Every week my arm bruises up and looks like shit! Today was my last day for weekly blood draws and I am so happy! These last two months have been such hell.. I am forever thankful for my amazing OB team for going through this with me. I still have six months of blood work that we have to continue on. We are not even close to being done. Now it’s just maintaining the levels and making sure they stay down. I have no doubt that they won’t stay low since we can’t try for another baby right now and I am also on a birth control pill to keep me from getting pregnant while we are going through this process.. If you don’t know what a molar pregnancy is, It’s where you have all the pregnancy cells but a non fertilized egg.. Most times it is because the female body releases a egg that doesn’t have any fertilizing capabilities.. And when a sperm and the egg comes together the sperm takes over and then tissue forms and a abnormal placenta forms.. You also gain alot of weight with it as well.. And even though I was only 9 weeks when we found out, I looked like I was 15 weeks pregnant.. I wanted to share my story for anyone who has went through this, or who is going through it right now.. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! I have cried so much through this process.. Knowing that when June comes I will again be sad knowing that we won’t have the baby we were so excited for.. Knowing that there was no baby at any point is a blessing. But also I feel like sad that I am mourning a pregnancy loss and not a loss of a baby.. I know this all sounds weird to say.. Has anyone been through this before? If so, How are you coping with it? Or how did you cope with it? Thank you for reading this and for letting me share my story!! This is my first time sharing this other than the few people we told already.. But I feel now is the right time to share about it!

ElizabethΒ 

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November Favorites!

Good afternoon everyone! I’m sorry I haven’t posted in over a month! We’ve been dealing with some things and I just haven’t felt like blogging until now..

I never thought that my blog would take a beauty turn but I have some amazing products I’d like to share with you all! All of my pictures have been taken on my brand new Nikon D3400 DSLR camera. This is my first ever DSLR camera and I am loving it so far! Some of my pictures I feel didn’t come out the way I would have liked them to come out, but I know practice makes perfect..

  1. Smashbox primer water and primers. I love these products. I got the travel size off Amazon since I wanted to try them out before buying the bigger bottles.. The primer water adds a nice moisture to my face and helps the primer glide on smoothly. I love both primers, one because they’re oil free and for oily skin tones they work amazing!! Highly recommend trying these out.

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2. Foundations. I’m currently loving both these foundations. I use the Burts Bees one for if I don’t need full coverage or if I just want to wear makeup around the house. I use the Wet N Wild one for when I need fuller coverage or if we are planning to be out and about all day.. Both of them are amazing and I use them both pretty regularly!

3. Setting Powder. I have been loving this Banana powder from Makeup Revolution. This setting powder has zero flashback and is just the perfect shade for pale skin tones and even dark skin tones. I’ll be honest I didn’t know what the hype was over a banana powder but since getting this and trying it out, I now know it’s even more amazing than I first thought!

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4. Favorite lippies. The makeup revolution lipsticks are so my favorites! They have nice pigment and stay on forever! I also am currently loving the Flower Beauty matte liquid lip. The only downside is, it bleeds into my lips but I feel a nice lip primer could help that!

5. Contour palette.. I don’t use this as a contour palette. I don’t like the way contouring looks on me. So instead I use it as a bronzer and I love it! Nice pigment and a little goes a long way! I barely dip my brush into it and get plenty enough!

6. Highlighters. If you know me you know that I am obsessed with highlighters. I have several palettes and use them all! The two I have been using the most lately are these two. The elf one is amazing for all skin tones! When I saw that Heart Defensor was collaborating with Elf I just HAD to buy it! She’s one of my favorites to watch on youtube! My newest highlighter palette is this Smashbox Spotlight Palette in Pearl. I’m loving this one so much! One of my reasonings for wanting this one was because Casey Holmes collaborated with Smashbox to bring this one out. She’s also another Youtube beauty Vlogger that I just love!!

7. Tarte Blushes. I got one of the blushes free from Sephora for my Birthday and the other one was in my Ipsy bag. I am loving these blushes! They’re nicely pigmented and have nice colors on my cheeks! I am beyond obsessed with them!

8. Setting Spray, Mascara, And eyelid primer. So I bought both the setting spray and the mascara and love both of them! My makeup doesn’t budge when I use the setting spray and it lasts so long as well! I love the volume of the mascara and highly recommend it! The eyelid primer came in my Ipsy bag and I am so glad I got it! I am obsessed with it and a little goes a long way with it! I’m starting to think a little goes a long way with ALL of Smashbox’s products..

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9. Eyeshadow Palettes.. I bought these around my birthday and I am so impressed with them! All three are palettes from Makeup Revolution and they are nicely pigmented too! They blend out super easy as well! I paid $4.00 for two of them. The most expensive one was the mermaid palette and that one was $7.00!!

10. Hair care products. Lastly I want to talk all about Eva NYC. I was sent all these products from Influenster to review and I have already reviewed them on their app. But I wanted to add these to my November favorites. These three products have made my hair shiny and healthy looking! The dry shampoo doesn’t make my hair gritty feeling or just feeling nasty period. It makes my hair super soft and it always looks like I just washed my hair. The hair primer is simply amazing! The volume powder is amazing for when my hair needs some added volume. Over all I love this company and I will continue to buy their products!

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Ok, So that’s the wrap of my November Favorites. I am considering on keeping this as a monthly thing! Just so everyone knows, I was NOT sponsored in any way for this post! I have bought everything unless noted in the post!! If you have tried any of these products let me know which are your favorites!!

Elizabeth

Salty Bow CoΒ 

If your following me on Instagram (if your not and want go follow along with the daily life, then head to my page by clicking on the instagram grid on the side) then you’ve seen me posting about Salty Bow Co. We’ve been a brand rep for their fall line and it’s been so exciting pairing up the different bows with Lexi’s outfits! They make the cutest little bows ever! They also make bibs, and paci clip! I love supporting small shops and their owners! Salty Bow Co donates New Mom boxes to new mothers who just had a baby! It’s amazing to see their ministry grow! I’ll be adding our pictures so far of Lexi modeling their bows! If you’d like to purchase anything from them use code ALEXANDRA10 for a discount! Shop by clicking here.πŸ‘‰Salty Bow Co. 

This one is my favorite taken recently with our newest bow! I love how it looks like she’s reading, though she’s watching TV.

Holding daddy’s candy was the only way to keep her sitting long enough for a picture!πŸ˜‚

This girl has so much sass! Toddlers are so fun! Sporting our Brand Rep exclusive bow right here!

Lexi modeling Salty Bow Co paci clip!

One of our favorites is this maroon bow! It’s just the cutest!

Our first bow and we still love this one!

So far these are the pictures we’ve taken! I just love being a brand rep for this amazing small business company! Hope each of you have a wonderful night!

Elizabeth 

Alexandra 8&9 month update!

Good afternoon everyone!! I’m so glad that you’ve stopped by to take a look at my blog! I haven’t posted any monthly updates about Lexi the last two months! I’m sorry about that! So today I’m posting it! I’m also going to try and post either weekly or by-weekly! What are some suggestions y’all would like for me to post? Give me all the ideas!Β 
Ok now onto Lexi, she’s 9 months old this month! She knows how to crawl, is learning to pull herself up and let’s go so she can try and stand on her own! I’m so amazed at how much she’s learning! She loves her books which I’m sure I’ve mentioned before, also loves to eat anything we eat! I’ll post both her 8 month and 9 month pictures below!Β 

I’m amazed by how much she’s growing! I can’t believe in just 3 short months she’ll be a year old! It’s crazy how fast the first year goes by! Some might say that it goes by slowly especially if they are having cranky babies or just having day to day difficulties! But for us, it seems to go by fast since we have such an easy and happy go-lucky baby! It’s been amazing and I just love motherhood so much! It’s everything I dreamed about!πŸ’“

The other day I took a picture of Lexi and I! It’s got to be one of my favorites yet!!πŸ’“πŸ’“

Praying that each of you have a wonderful day!!Β 
Elizabeth


Outfit For The Day

I don’t do much outfit posting on my blog much. But I just had to share my wonderful find from GH Bass this week! My husband, Lexi, and I went into their store the other day just looking at their winter clothing and all.. I ended finding a wonderful flannel top, and 2 cotton t-shirts all on sale! I just love how all my shirts are so comfy to wear and also are at appropriate length and don’t ride up when I bend down to pick Lexi up!πŸ‘ŒΒ 

Shirt: GH Bass
Pants: Denizen by Levi (Target)
Shoes: GH Bass
Hoodie: Victoria’s Secret Pink

I am in love with this comfy outfit! Also if your on instagram, I mostly post my outfit and daily going- on’s so feel free to follow along! My instagram handle is Whittenwifey!Β 
~Elizabeth

Lexi {7 Month Update}

Hello everyone! Hope each of you have been having a wonderful New Year and January! We had some snow near the beginning of this month which is so rare for North West Mississippi!! We’ve also had some nice warm days as well! I really can’t wait for Spring so we can take Lexi to the park to swing and such! This month Lexi turned 7 months old! She’s such a spunky little girl! She loves food, her daddy, going to the zoo, playing with her puppy (Cassie our Great Dane) and just overall loves learning new things! πŸ’–πŸ˜Š

I have included some of my favorites this month! Having a cell phone to capture every moment is so amazing! I am so blessed to be this girl’s mom! It’s so fun to watch her grow and become more mobile these past few months! This month she hit a milestone and has been learning the ropes of crawling! Watching her hit these milestones are so awesome! I am in awe every day with how much she’s growing and learning! πŸ˜πŸ˜˜πŸ’–

Hope each of you have a wonderful evening!
~Elizabeth